Love thyself..and everything else will fall into place

How can you want to love someone else, but not love yourself? That is a question that has been running through my mind a lot lately. Lately, since I'm getting a lot older, the word relationship has been coming up a lot more often. Girls has been wondering when will it happen for them and some are already in one, which is nice too. I think about it often myself and know that someday a lovely young will come out of nowhere and sweep me off the ground and blah blah blah :) LOL But moving on, sometimes I wonder, am I really ready to get to this new step, do I love myself enough to love someone else? I think that this is something that both male and female should think about. I think that many people just rush into I like him and he likes me factor but don't really think it through with their own self and if they love themselves enough. Because you can't just start taking care of something else if you haven't taken care of your own self first, if you haven't gotten your own priorities straight.. Just something to think about. Kisses for all.xoxo
-Sweetness <3

Parental Advisory: Mild Language

I don't so this or say this often but for once I must...ahem..cough, cough, cough:
FUCK OFF, and LEAVE ME AND MY BODY THE FUCK ALONE..
I feel a little better now... *sigh*

This is what I want to say when my parents or family member wants to say something about my weight..gosh like its never going to end.. gosh I get it I'm fat and I need to lose some weight. It's not the easiest thing to do in the world but can you just fuck off for once. Like don't they understand that bothering me and telling me what parts of MY BODY needs to be fixed won't help. Let me do this on my one. Forcing me and telling me over and over and over isn't encouraging. In fact it hurts me. Because I already know this, I've known it since I was a little chubby 10 year old. They're lucky that I'm not someone that locked my self away and only got fatter. They're lucky that I don't hate working out and that I eat food too much. Sometimes I wish that I can leave my house before everyone wakes up and get back home after everyone falls asleep just to avoid the subject coming out of someone's mouth. You think I'm comfortable in my own skin? Gosh I have plans for my body and my life but people reminding me about my weight isn't going to work. Shit, it hurts when people go ahead and say things like "you were gettting skinny, you skin was getting nice, and you were so pretty, but then you stopped"<---- what the hell is that supposed to mean?? I became ugly?? What?!!? I don't get it??!.... I refuse to let people shoot my confidence down and it took me a long way to get here.. so do me a favor and FUCK OFF until further notice.. Thank you and good night. smh

How do you say goodbye......

How do you say goodbye to someone when you're not ready to let them go...
How do you say goodbye when you never really got a chance to see them in long time..
How do you say goodbye to someone when you never got the chance to spend the time that you wanted to spend with them, when you wanted to tell them about your life, and you wanted to laugh, cry, and talk to them, when you never got a chance to exchange stories or tease each other..How do you say goodbye to someone you were just about to reconnect with..
How to do you let go when they were the one that you connected to the most, when they understood you the most and accepted you for your flaws and all.. How do you let go when they were you night and shining armor, your hero, and your best friend.. 
Honestly, I don't think you let go... I think you hold on to what you had without it hurting your future and what God has in store for you. 


Only God knows why he takes certain people away in your life, but I will never understand and will never let go. <3 Dragoon <3 *insider*